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Ps: Dont care about my post because all i want is to say how i feel. If anyone feel offended, den please stop reading. And if have any comments, i think its better to keep it to yourself :)

I finally got got the time to update my blog. So many thing happen this few weeks but i'm not gonner blog out much. New supervise at sn her name is noel. New & adorable pups & many many more.

Past few days was crazy but ya i'm too lazy to type out. Went over to causeway today & yes, i made new friends. Receive a call from sok asking me about somethings & i'm not shock about it because i knew my phone is gonner ring and yes, people will comment on whatever i've said. But who cares.

Please take note. Whatever happens to anyone, ITS NON OF MY BUSINESS. Dont try to pull me into this because i'm not interested in anything except my life. Go ahead and comment on what kinda person i am because it wont affect me. All i need to know is what kinda person i am myself. I'm so use to all this already so i dont see the point anymore. The more i say, the more comment i'll receive so why not just shut the fuck up right. Girl, you've got to learn this. To stop people from giving more comments, is to shut up and continue with our life. In life, there's always up and downs & eventhough sometime you think that the world is being unfair to you, think about it. When has this world been fair? You get what i mean? Dont worry, i wont wanna get involve in this pile of shit.

I'm so glad that i love my job super much now & i cant give a dame about anything except my job. Well, but not just my job thats is important.

Mel baby, AhHai sis, Rebecca wang & huang, Felicia Tan, Toh HuiHui, Angie, Lilian & Gwenn is missed by me every single day. True friends may disagree with me at times but we wont let things that we disagree about affect us. Yes, we might have conflicts at times but i know what's healthy for me and what's not. We will choose to give in then die die want everything to go our way.

Many things will change starting next month onwards & dont worry darlgs, my love for you guys will never change. My birthday is coming & yes i'm going to work. No more celebration anymore because i think its a total waste of money. As for this year, i'm gonner show you what kinda girl i am. Dont compare how i was in the past and now because its totally different. See the different and just shut the fuck up. Thank you. I am who i am now. Nothing can change the fact.

Work as usual. Baby came to fetch me after that. Accompany him to work and back home after that. Gonner bring baby pika to the vet tomoro. I'm so broke right now. Not gooner say much. I wanna watch show

I know i haven been updating offten but i'll try to upload whenever i'm free k. I always working now a days so i'll only be free on thursdays. I love this job & i'll work hard and prove to others. Pika baby is sick & it hurts me so much to see him going botak now. I cried when i see all those botak spots. His something i can never leave without now. 2010 isnt really smooth anyway. Offten quarrel with baby & i'm so tired that i rather give in. 're not the only one who is tired right now ok.

My birthday is coming next saturday & i've done with the planning. Its gonner be a cousins night. All those who knows them are welcome. I know that we walk our own way now but i'm still happy that all of you cares at time.

Especially Lewis Wee.

I know that i've always been the biggest headach in the past & we offten quarrel because of all those mistakes i've done & you have to clean in all up for me. I'm sorry & i've change :) no more headach anymore. I wanna be an ordinary girl leading ordinary life with lovely cousins. Blood is always thicker den water & i've learn that eversince you said that to me. 2009 has past and its a new year right now. So everything's gonner change for the better k. Still, here's a million thank you cousin.

I remember recieving 3 cakes last year & all the wishes i made is the same. But last year was a total shit. We had a huge quarrel & i guess we can never be just friends anymore. I have so many things i wanna say but i cant. I always thought i'll get over it one day but deep inside i know i cant. 're my biggest mistake & its not about getting together with you. Its leaving you. I know even if i dont leave you, 're leave me someday but at least i wont hate myself for breaking up. I have lied to myself for 1 year plus. One lie cover another. How stupid can i be.

让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我 却不在你的心中 逗留

你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

Ps, its just a lyrics. I didnt mean to talk or say about anyone.

Anyway baby is back riding his bike. You have been with me for the past 16mth, There's always been laughter, tears, anger, irritation & many many feelings. Whatever it is, if i still can hold on to this relationship, i will. Baby, i know life now for you is horrible and 're trying hard to make everything goes smoothly. And thank you for all the love you gave me. I love you too.

Anyway nights peeps, its 3 alr. Gosh i'm left with 5 1/2hour

Somethings wrong with my pika baby. There's like patches on his fur & his bare skin is red. I'm so bringing him to see carole tomoro & if its worst, to the vet then. I'm so worry about him now. His like my life and i having been paying too much attention on him since i started work. Sorry pika baby, i promise i will pay more attention to you from now on. Sorry baby. Need to go to bed now. Need to bath pika baby tomoro before bring him to work. Anyway, i'm home today just went out for subway and home again :(

After soul searching for a few days, i shall stop all my nagging and complaining. I mean, hey its 2010 alr & why am i still so fucked up right. I should be a happy girl this year. Things comes and goes. So if its really mine, it will return someday i guess.

Happiness? I rather work hard right now and create my own happiness in future. After so many things, i know i haven really change at all. My attituted is still the same & yes my temper, its getting worst. So i'll change & i'll learn to cool down from now on. No more 大小姐脾气.

So no more going out in my schedule :) It will only be work, work & still work. So baby, you dont have to report to me about anything anymore because i wont care a single bit. All i want now, is to forcus on working. Anyway i'm off today and i cant wait to meet mummy & mel baby later at bugis. I'm so scared of " friends " now that i dont even dare to meet up with anyone other than those i know are truly friends.

Nights peeps, gtg

I dont know what's going through my mind this few days. After the quarrel with irwan, everything changes. Our relationship, my mood and other things. I want to complain to someone, someone whome i can really trust. Someone whome i know will tell me what to do, instead of going around tell others what i said. Someone, who knows how i feel instead of how they themself feel. At that time, only some appears in my head. I can have so many friends. But just some appears & i myself know they are truely mine.

Get this right. I hate my past & that means my school life. Before i really take a look at this world. I'm who i am now & i'm not like how i was during the school time. So dont compare my old self and current self got it. Anyway you can go ahead and hate me for what i've done before. But who cares because i'm who i am. If you still dont like me then go ahead i dont care a single bit at all understand. I have so much to say yet i cant express it here. But i'll keep all these t myself because whatever happen's later, i know i'll blow my top. So thats all i'm saying now.

I'm shock to see your statues going from single to in a relationship. I felt so relieve suddenly. One friend once ask me, you still like him arh & all i reply him was, once bitten twice shy. And i'm actually scared of him alr. So we are just normal friends right now just like you and me. But ya, this news shock me really. But anyway congrats & take care my friend :)

I'm so tired right now & i'm really sick today that i cant go work. I cant stop going toilet yet bad news are still coming to me one by one. Baby sold his care to junching & yes his DRZ is coming out soon if i'm not wrong & his gonner make it pink. But who cares really. Whether its bike or car it doesnt matter anymore because i'm tired alr. You have made your choice and your so call friends are your choice so go ahead. Just dont stop me from finding my happiness.

Take care everyone & those who recieve my msg the other days. And for my birthday i'm working so too bad no celebration this year :) & irwan, you dont have to bother either. I've seen through you. Inside out.

Dont look down on me because i wont let you have the chance to.

You might look down on me now but not in future.

I walk this path on my own and i know what i want in life. In this world, money isnt anything.

You dont understand me so dont judge me.

Im so sad. I'm really really sad. One of my fav dog pass away when i'm working at other outlet today. Did 12hour shelf today. Super tired work up @ 530 and reach cp at 7am and end work at 7pm. So tired. Not gonner talk much. Loves

I finally have the time to sit on my sofa & play with my lappy for awhile. I'm tired but i'm happy too. Firstly, i love my job & my new colleagues are wonderful. I'm use to the poopoo smell alr.

24/12/09

X'mas eve. Carole fetch me hom after work. Thank you sweet. Fall asleep right away while waiting for baby. His busy doing his car & forgotten about me :( Called me after that & he came over my house to fetch me. Intented to watch alvin and the chipmunk. Well, his friend ask him out and yes, he said yes.

Meet his friend at Bt Batok Petrol Station & went over to eat prata. Bleah~ boring. Went over to Jalan Kayu Petrol station after that t meet my darlg jocelyn & there come MGTS. Was really pissed of with someone because he insisted on making a scene out there. Firstly, both me and irwan isnt interested in your group rounding & we go along is because of his friend. Get this right, I didnt run away from you guys. I just feel that thats all i'm telling you because its non of my business. I can say what i want and what i dont want. If you really want to find that person, i've told you where the person is and its for you to go and find him. So get a life. And dont judge me with your childish mind sets. I'm a grown up now & i knows whats important and whats not. And yes, you guys are not important at all. Losing some friends doesnt make any different in my life. " CHILDISH "

Anyway went home after

25/12/09

Merry X'mas & a Happy New Year Peeps

Went t work as usual & though it was x'mas, i just felt its just like any other day. Nothign different huh. Brought Pika baby to shop for romie to cute his super long nails. But before that, i've bath him and he scratch my neck and hand when i was blowing him dry *ouch. Carole's daughter had fever so he cant come to work so xiaomao came instead. Xiaomao went over to causeway after that and Carole came in the late evening to do some paper work. Baby came down to wait for me knock off and went over to my hosue downstairs for dinner & i went home after that. Gonner go bath soon. Love Love

Passerby: Lim Chu Kang Lane 1

Bleah~ doesnt really have much time to update anymore but i'll try my best alrights.

Anyway on the 21st of dec, Didnt meet up with baby. But still, happy belated 16mth anni darlg

Went to watch avanta with baby in the 22nd and its a really nice show.

And yesterday my first off day, its baby's birthday but i realise that his so call friends are so %^&*(@#$%^&* non of them send him birthday regards lah and them dare to call themself friends. OMG. Meet up with my mum yesterday and we went IMM for shopping. She bought me a new shoe from cotton on and gave me our x'mas present. Love you mummy. Baby came t fetch us after that and send my mum home. Went over to CCK to get his lorry & i secretly present to him a lil cake i bought at IMM with a candle on top :) Guess his MOVED hahas. Gave him my handmade present and off to work with him. Nothing much happen lah. GTG alr. Love you peeps, please click on my ads ty.